These are SOME of the people in my life who make it worth while(: my BESTIES.
There are days when i just want to go in my room and eliminate myself from the world..because thats the easy thing to do. I have been through a lot in my life. &+EVERYTHING i have been through has made me who i am. Through all the tears and heartache..He’s been there. Despite every negative thought and bad situations..we need to trust HIM! I love my life because Christ is always there and loves me unconditionally. Lord, I trust you. <3
So many things..
I love you. I miss you. You loved me. I was your pride and joy. I was your baby. So, was your death. You planned your death like you planned having me. Except you kept it a secret, but you showed me off to the world. You didn't even tell me. I don't know how many times I've blamed myself, when you were the one with the real problems. Somedays I dream your still alive. I need you don't you get it. You dying, killed me more on the inside than it killed you on the outside. Do I cry? Yes, I do. The worst part is, now, it's uncontrollable. I needed you more than anything in this whole world when my hero, my life, my world died, Starlit Frank. She was just my aunt, you were my mom. Yet, when she died I felt it more you know why, she was here her whole life fighting for a place in this world when you gave up...just quit. You quit while she was fighting i need you now. God took her home, but you left on your own. All i can say is i forgive you, for me not for you..because your feelings are irrelevant cause your gone. However, i love you..this is just my prespective on things.another day.
lets just smile and pretend to be happy, okay everyone.?
Sometimes life just seems like chapters of good-byes.
school. life. mom. auntie.
junior year..already? so really, where is my life going? who am i gonna be? where am i headed? this weekend was labor day weekend. i pretty much realized even more than i already knew, no matter how many times you think you can depend on someone..you can't. my mom's never coming back. and i watched madea goes to jail. and i learned something very valuable or recognized it cause i already knew..."forgiveness is not for them, its for you." i can hold a grudge over what my mom did everyday, but is it going to bring her back to life. no! it never will. i know because i've tried. i imagine life with her here on earth every so often. but she's never coming back. now, i've been through hell and back losing her...but honestly when i lost my aunt starlit i felt like i was in the flames of hell burning on my back holding a gun to my head, telling me my world was being taken from me. starlit sue frank was my rock, the glue that held my life together. the heart that kept me from worrying. and shes gone. now, really, all i have is me. &the loved ones around me. she was my best friend though, one of the people i lost and can never be replaced. she was truly my secret keeper. &oh boy was she good at it.<33 ~sara-mae~their baby is their rock. they should be together cause all those feelings when they had sex the first time had to come from somewhere other than lust. at least thats my opinion. cause when ben leaves amy. who’s she gonna have? :/
i think they are wrong for each other. yet, so right at the same time. she’s like as hot megan fox. [no homo] but, in my mind he should be with amy. even though he loves adrian. adrian needs to calm down and trust her man to make decisions right for him.
i HATE him. he just needs to break up with her, if he just has sex with her and leaves her i swear i will be utterly frustrated.!
she is unbelievable GORGEOUS! i pretty much think SHE should break up with ben. before he DOES!
